I know it’s too early to say “September, Please be good to me” since it’s still August. But so many things had happened in August that I can’t take it anymore. I wanted to have amnesia and forget everything he said, just think, how would a girl react when the one they love say to them, “WALA AKONG PAKIELAM SA NARARAMDAMAN MO!” “MARAMI PANG BAGAY ANG IMPORTANTE!” “NAKAKABWISIT KA” “BIPOLAR KA!” “BOBO KA!” “TANGA KA” well… they could have left the person, but that exempt me from doing it, I might be that stupid to hold on though the signs are already telling me to let go.
March 2012, it started, when we go to malls he doesn’t want to hold my hands anymore, he takes it away from me and I feel so sad. 😦 Crap. I get emotional when I remember it, really. I knew something had happened, something went wrong, something is going to change, oh well. It ain’t the first time, I knew he never love me from the beginning. He never fought for me. He never did.
June 2012, the usual going out as family stop, we stopped going to malls to buy things for our baby. We stopped eating lunch or just going somewhere as couple dating. Everything stopped. So, something was definitely going on.
July 2012, I finally ended up crying most of the time. Two, three? or even days of crying from sleep without him comforting me, saying sorry or there was no apologizing happened. I was like his door mat, a psp console, I felt being used by someone. And it hurt.
August 2012, A friend told me to make my decision, and I had to decide fast, my decision? I need a break. I needed some time off. I’m going to take care of our baby without him. I had no choice, I’m too hurt to face him. Then he messaged “Love kita!” “It will always be the 3 of us!” I took that as answer and tried my best to trust him again, but it’s too hard. Cause I knew there’s a girl messaging him.
His words and actions are not the same. So, as a guy what can you say? Am I too naive to feel this pain or just a normal reaction coming from a girl who’s taken for granted by a guy? 😦
I need a happy pill!
Thing is, if he no longer loves me why not tell it to my face rather kill me slowly from pain? 😦 I wonder if he really loves me…
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Advices are welcome.